PREMONITION?

So I just saw that Margot Kidder, famous for her role as Lois Lane in the Superman movies from the 70s/80s, passed away on Sunday. Something peculiar happened to me either last night or the night before (I can't recall which evening it occurred). I was lying in bed, trying to get to sleep after having some of my medical marijuana. I've been taking stronger doses the past few days to help me sleep better. As I was lying there, my mind started to wander as it does when I am trying to fall asleep. Occasionally the medical marijuana will cause my thoughts to wander even more than usual, and in unexpected ways. So on this night the Superman movies popped in my head: I thought about Christoper Reeve as Superman, and Margot Kidder as Lois Lane. I remembered watching those movies as a kid and was so enthralled with their relationship--how he always made sure she was safe; how he'd swoop down from the sky to rescue her from dangerous situations. I remembered  the chemistry of their kisses. I also thought what a shame it was that Christopher Reeve had died so young and so tragically, and even wondered if "Lois Lane" was still alive.

So it was very eerie seeing her in the news today, and learning of her death. May she rest in peace.

DO NO HARM DAY

Thomasina, Ollie, and Onyx would like to remind everyone that declawing is mutilation and can cause lifelong problems for your cat. Please visit The Paw Project for more info! Thanks for speaking up for cats and kittens everywhere! #DoNoHarmDay #BanDeclawing #MakeItALawDontDeclaw

WE'RE CUTTING OFF THE REINFORCEMENTS, MA'AM

So today's therapy session did not go so great, and not because of the actual therapy, but because my doctor is moving to a different location in 2 months and won't be covered under my insurance. He gave me the heads-up (which I appreciate) so that I could make the necessary adjustments when the time comes: either a) call my insurance to find out if they cover out-of-network (they don't); b) pay $80 per visit (can't afford it); or c) get a new therapist (now when I am finally starting to open up and make a remote semblance of progress). Naturally, this has flung me into my "worry, worry, worry" state, which is completely defeating and depressing. Couple that with the fact that my night terrors have been keeping me in a state of frenzied panic--when instead I should be getting restful sleep--which in turn has caused my TMJ to act up overtime. I'm done, people. I'm done.

FANGIRLING!

Tweeting to Mark Borchardt's radio show tonite, so it must be Monday!

I LIKE TO WATCH IT IN ALL UNIVERSES AND DIMENSIONS

Finally started watching "Rick and Morty." Shit's good, bitch!

OH MY BAD

Parents fuck you up and then get pissy 'cause you're fucked up. Really dudes?

SONDERKOMMANDO

Stayed up til about 3am last night reading a book about the Holocaust, as I couldn't get to sleep due to this cold I'm fighting off. I figured I'm already depressed with everything, might as well do some light reading. Then, when I finally did fall asleep, I dreamt of IG Farben and Zyklon B all night. The humidifier we had going really helped my nightmares come to life with all the hissing jets of mist. Kevin told me I screamed early in the AM (I don't remember). Still another day in paradise.